Exceptions.

I just saw my dog, and I thought of it.
2 years later, maybe my dog ain't gonna survive.
Sure is fast. 8 Years old already.
I asked mummy, "If Dingding died, would you cry?"
She said, "Cry for what?"

I was thinking that the dog has been with us for so long, I couldn't imagine my dog dead.
The whole house would be real empty.
Each day passes by, I see my dog, enjoying the best of her life.

To now, the show: 10 Promises To My Dog
The 10 promises still reminds me.
The last one was the hardest.
"Please be with me when my times comes for my last breath."

I felt bad when I scolded my dog for peeing somewhere which she wasn't supposed to.
Now I realized, it was 2 years until the deadline.
If she survived longer, it will add more difficulty for the dog to actually breathe properly.

Time changes so quickly.
I kept hoping, that tomorrow never comes.
That my family is kept within, still stable.

I remembered my brother asking me this: "Are you prepared when mummy die?"
I totally didn't think of that before.
My mom, is getting older by the day, and one day she'll leave this world.
Letting me, all by myself.

During my grandfather's funeral, I had images of my mom being dead, and how it would be like.
I kept tearing and crying because it made me realized how much I really loved my mom.
I really, really did.

I don't really know what's happening.
It feels as if the world is revolving around me constantly.
During Chinese lesson today, my teacher showed me these two sentences:

When one door of happiness closes,
another one opens;
But often we look so long at
the closed door that we do
not see the one which has been
opened for us.

and

The best and most
beautiful things
in the world cannot
be seen or touched.
They must be felt with
the heart.

All these two by some girl named Helen Keller.
It got me thinking. A lot.

I'm really sorry.
I can't do anything right.
If there's anything possible, for things to become normal again, I'd be real happy.
Right here, right now.
私はあなたの生活に問題を追加しているように思える。