Problems?

There're like so much problems lately. Why so complicated? The year is gonna end. Why create more trouble?

Prelude

One thing for sure, I'm too tired to blog. Been awake for like more than 24 hours. But Jiawen's sleeping on my bed.

Xmas eve, 2010.

First and for most,

Happy 17th birthday Bryan!

And to everyone, I wish you a Merry Christmas!

I would run, I would fly.

If you would come into my heart.

Then I will stay next to you like the river water flows.

If you would come into my heart.

MBLAQ Ft C-Luv - If you would come into my heart.

Upcoming events for the last week for 2010!

Tomorrow - 24th Dec

Going out with friends to town. Staying there overnight.

The next day - 25th Dec

Heading home about afternoon and get some rest.

The day after - 26th Dec

Rest at home

Soon after - 27th Dec

Accompanying mother to hospital for her checkup.

And then - 28th Dec

Rest again.

Following - 29th Dec

Final class outing for 4N2

And then again - 30th Dec

Resting period.

Soon after again - 31st Dec

Heading out for countdown, staying overnight.

New year - 1st Jan

Should reach home at afternoon.

2nd day of the new year - 2nd Jan

Rest.

3rd day of the new year - 3rd Jan

Time for school.

Complicated.

Things are getting more and more complicated. One wrong turn, and you're lost.

Optical impression

Who knows. Maybe I might turn crazy any moment? Haha.

I don't get it.

I don't understand at all.

Promotion, promotion, promotion!

I've managed to pass to sec 5! Gonna struggle next year, but I promise to study hard for poly. Wish me luck in the next year!

To the people who didn't make it:
Don't give up. You can do it!

Super fun!

Today was super fun! I first met up with Yanglin at Woodlands. Then Jane and Kenneth. Ate at foodcourt. Saw a couple of familiar faces. (hahaha). Met KS @ Causeway point. Went to checkpoint to play pool. After that went to fetch Shermaine. Found Gary, smacked his head cause he refused to come up. Found some "old friend" that I don't remember. Went up, Jiawen, Junjie, Pornstar and Yasha were there. Played abit more. Went to macs for dinner. Had loadddddddddds of laughter cause I've been disturbing probably everybody there. Super fun please! And here I am, at home!

There are a few casualties.

Before going out:
My hair was super chio. Made my fringe super straight and soft and nice. Well my back was like, ok?

After stepping out of the house:

Wind starts to pick up. Fringe was in a mess.

Waiting for bus:
Wind was SUPER STRONG. My hair is SUPER UNGLAM.

Arrival:
MY HAIR IS SUPER DUPER UNGLAM ):

Throughout the day:
The hairspray lasted. My fringe did not.

I need a little more luck than a little bit.

Because every time I try, the words won't fit.

The GazettE - Pledge

Kizu tsuketa ato tashika
Kizukenakatta koto
Ayamachi no kazu kimi wo motome
Mitsume aeta hazu sa

Chīsana uso ga
Hibi wo umeteita
Utagai wo kawasu yōu ni
Ushinau imi wo kokoro ga shiru
Tachitsukusu nidome no fuyu

Kimi wa mienai asu ni tomadoi
Koe wo age, naiteita ne
Kotoba wo sagasu koto mo dekizu ni
Ochiru namida wo hirotta

Sabishisa ni tsutsumarete
Hibi wa tada wo nurashi
Hikari wo motomeai kurikaeshita
Mata fukaku omoeru

Koe wo kanjite no wa uso janai
Ah, tashika ni kimi no tonari de

Aishiteru nandemo iranai
Tada zutto, soba ni ite to
Koe wo tarashi naiteita kimi ni
Kowarete yukitai

Saisho de saigo no kotoba wa kimi e sono ude wo (hanasanai yo)
Kata wo narabete onaji yume ga futari wo saru

Chīsana uso ga katachi wo kaete
Shiroi yuki ni toketeyuku
Ushinau imi wo wasurenu you ni
Nando mo mune ni kizamu yo

Sayonara wa koko ni oite arukidasou
Mou nido to miushinau koto wa nai

Futari ai wo tashikameau you ni
Kanashimi wo mitekita kara
Ashita futari kiete shimatte mo
Mou nakanai utai yo

Itsuka sugisaru kisetsu no you ni
Kawariyuku futari ga ite
Kanashimi ni tachidomaru yoru ga kite mo
Wasurenaide, owaru koto wa nai
Futari yume no naka...

English Translation

it only hurts after meeting painful facts inside,
When we met I should have seen you are one step closer to guiltiness

A simple lie filled up everyday
Doubt exchange at least
We lost meaning of heart we knew

For second time this winter you are standing here without showing you are lost
With raised voice I am searching for the words to hurt you
Falling tears build up

Embraced by a loneliness free of doubts I am happy
Light should be known as week love yet we are still apart

I don’t want to hear voice filled up with lies
Aaa
Which are certainly next to you..

Even if i don’t need ‘’i love you’’
I needed you here more

I am sorry for the broken sadness melting into you
First and the last words from you are in this song
Leaving two of us in the same dream side by side

The little lies have different shape of white that is going to dissolve intention
In order to forget the meaning of memories

Goodbye walks in
Walking again suddenly

For sure we didn’t lose sight of our mutual love
because of sadness tomorrow both of us will be again
disappointed by hope yet the song is good

Someday past will go away as the seasons change
We will disappear as the burning night comes to cut off sadness
I wont forget
I wont close the fact that we are both inside the dream

Everybody is living life to the fullest, but I'm not.

Maybe ranting here isn't such a bad idea at all. Hahahaha.

Full of regrets

The only thing on my mind now, is sorry.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry.

Hands up

A certain someone is stalking me. Hmm.

Day 4 - Your sibling

My brother, BENEDICT KHOO. HAHA.

A revolution older than me, and you're still like a kid. Even though you cannot really support for yourself despite your job, you still paid for my phone bills. Thank you very much korkor! Though I always quarrel with you because of mummy and daddy, I still love you very very much. You always act like a kid despite your age. Kicking me, punching me out of nowhere. You and your stupid nonsense. Actually I've nothing else to type already.

On my way to blackshot to pwn Yanglin. HAHA. She's skype-ing me now and she's whining. Epic fail.

And YOU. Stop STALKING ME ):

Exposure

Things are getting complicated at home. I'm stressing out as I've left 6 days till N's release. Fuck.

Day 3 - Your parents

Technically, I would try to avoid this. But it's for the sake of fun.

Dear Mum and Dad,

I know I may not be the best daughter, nor well behaved. I'm trying to match up to your expectations of me, even though I knew I couldn't. Thing is, I've always been the "average" type of person. Neither good nor bad, or something else. I've been reluctant to quite a number of things, but you tried to be patient with me. Thank you very much for that. I've been struggling with my studies and I hope to go to secondary 5 next year and get my studies straight for O's to opt for poly. I hope you both have not lose faith in me. I've nothing more to say then. So, yah.

And hence forth, I've another post for this girl.

Yanglin.

Yl, I don't know what happened just now. But cheer up okay? Even though he's not on his right mind, I'll always be there to support you. If you need a shoulder to cry on, tell me. I'll do my best to cheer you up. Don't be sad anymore. I'll always be here for you.

Neglect

Been neglecting my blog. Hahahaha. Time for letter 2.

Day 2 - Your crush

Well, I don't really count it as a "crush". Basically, you're always disturbing me whenever you have the chance to. I enjoy your adorable laugh, because. I always laugh while people laugh, and continue to laugh and laugh and laugh. Back to the point, you're always there for me. It's very encouraging and comfortable. Thanks for everything. Much loves.

You were here just yesterday.

Since I've nothing better to do, I'll do the 30 day letter challenge. I don't think I've anymore readers. But so, I'll still do it for the sake of "fun".

Day 1 - Your best friend

See that girl up there with her freaky distorted face? HAHA.

Dear Jiawen,

I've always loved you despite whatever you do that makes me really

frustrated and angry. But I know that we both have a temper towards others, but that's the bond that we share right? We're always disturbing people wherever we go, whatever game we play, and whoever comes in our way. It's no big deal! There are times that I am angry that you are mostly late when I asked you out, but I've no heart to yell at you. ): . I can't bear to hit you, I can't bear to scold you, I can't bear to see you cry. That's cause you're my most favourite sister!!! Me love you very much!

It's like I waited my whole life.

It's like I waited my whole life, for this one night.

It's gonna be me you and the dance floor.

Cause we only got one night.

Double your pleasure, double your fun.

And dance forever.

i.f.w.y.t.t.m.a.s.a.p.c.i.f.m.y.y.k.

i.l.s.f.s.r.n.

Everything.

I've had everything in the world that I've could've asked for.

But, it's not mine.

I welcomed you. I appreciate you. I adore you. I stayed by your side.

But there's no effect.

I'm just waiting like a retard.

Well, enough of that.

Sad things that come to life.

I don't wish to explain further.

I'm just nothing in your eyes.

Poppin bottles in the ice.

Have you ever been PARANOID?