Annoymously

Congrats for finding my blog.
I have people actually whispering to me during games.
So if I switched to fam-chats, would I see their whispers?
By accusing you saying that you all are distracting us,
well, it's what I thought.
Not what you thought.
If you think what I said was accusing, by all means, go ahead.
I never begged you to say that it was so accusing.
If you can't understand what I mean, so be it.
I have different meanings to what I said, so read carefully.
Whatever you think, is what you decide to think.
Not me.
Creativity can reach your mind and soul.
Meaning to that makes you wonder why thought I said that.
But I actually didn't, in some other kind of way.

Happy guessing.

Tired of drama.

My mom made me real frustrated this morning.
Seriously, its like something hit your head real hard, and you don't like it.
Went to buy school supplies for the start of the year.
Met JiaHui in school, and went home to bathe and change and headed out to library.
Apparently Ashwini and Faiz haven't reach.
So we ate in Macs in Civic and waited for them.
Ashwini brought her sister, cousin and her brother.
It's like her whole family.
So, went to library, went up to the fourth floor.
Got a table, and started work.
For the whole four hours there, we only finished English Paper 2.
The rest?
Didn't even touch them.
Well I did Physics and Design & Technology at home.
So I'm safe for two papers.
All that's left is Geography, Maths, English Paper 1 and Chemistry.
Aiyaiyai.
What am I supposed to do~
After sitting there for practically four hours and doing nothing, ( I was playing the iPhone though, got bored and played bejeweled. )
finally went down to Causeway.
Saw Rifqi in Civic and Samuel in Causeway Point.
Bought food home.
Washed up, and turned on the computer.
Got into arena.
But I lost in the first round.
I practically stoned during the Finish Move.
I was first, then I missed the Finish Move, dropped to fourth.
Angry as hell.
But whatever.
Fam-battled next.
The fam name was like Resolute or something.
I don't know. I only remembered Resolute.
It's like, Byron's in that fam, and they're like distracting us for the past three rounds.
Me, Jiawen and Desmond were not happy.
We can't focus, we can't chain, we can't even simply perfect.
Conclusion to that, our score sucks to the core.
I couldn't make it because I'm off beat today.
Really, frustrating group.
Argh.

My mind, my soul, my heart, my future's contents.
All mixed up as it said to thee, '' I hereby declare your death wish indeed. ''
'' Once it's fuffiled, trustworthy is seeked, neither lies nor truth would triumph over the curse of your fate, truly forseen. ''

This is getting nowhere.

Tired, tired, and being more tired.
I'm exhausted.
Watched Anime the whole day today.
Don't know why when I sat on my bed watching my monitor would feel so, exhausting.
Bizzare huh?
Well, got to go to library tomorrow to finish up school work.
Going with my schoolmates from 3N1.
Surprisingly a 3N2 student working with 3N1 students huh.
Been classmates with them for 2 years.
I don't think there's any problem with that :O!
Lately I kept using this emotion --> :O and ;pray
I have no idea.
But it's like making the mouth open wide.
Like as if it's being surprised.
Maybe I'm borrowing languages books tomorrow.
I wanna continue studying Japanese, Korean and probably Latin.
Hard to find books which are easier to understand.
Most of it seems complicated :O.

I felt the presence of your aura, it ain't good.

Devotion

Watched TV the whole afternoon.
I forgot to to my holiday assignments, but what gives?
I can do it tomorrow, I hope.
Played audition the whole day yesterday.
Coupled Minbin didi and went for arena.
In the prelim rounds, just nice.
We're against Desmond Chia.
He on-ed two computers and well, played by himself.
In the end, we both lost at the second round.

Hope for a better luck next time :D!

In the end, I've fallen into an oblivion.

So just pull the trigger.

Unfortunately I found my holiday assignments.
Crap, have to finish it before school starts.
No worries.
I can finish it all in one day.
Except for some questions which I probably don't understand, I'll just skip them.
Yeap.
Been kinda down lately.
But who cares?
Focusing on next year.
Seriously, I have to.
Back to audition, for awhile :D!

An unfortunate twist of events unwind and unfold in between your life and mine.

Abracadabra

I don't like special days leads to one epic evening.
I specifically hate days which are more disheartening.
I hate life, that's how.
I kept thinking this morning, if I were to leave this world.
What would the world think of me.
Well, actually not the world, but my loved ones.
Never mind about that thought now.
HEHEHEHE.
Seriously speaking, I kinda want to lose my life in this early age.
Didn't know that being a human, is so difficult.
I wanted life in the screens.
If I had those, I could seriously say that it really is a happy ending.
But, it won't always be, right?

Edited, 1519.

This really pissed me.
The moment I saw your character, I cried.
You happy now?
I can't do anything already.
Seriously, this upsets me a hell lot.
Just, why.
Would I be wondering about things like this right now.
I really am dumb right?
I deserve to be hit.
That's the least I really hoped for.

I'd give all my heart, that I'd wish to be all I could be.
Even if it's the end and somehow, I don't know what to do.
I wished you'd be happy, I loved you, but I have to get it over now.

Stand another feet away, so that I don't have to look at you in irony.

Worst xmas

Merry Christmas.
Or should I say the worst Christmas.
Went to town this evening with Jiawen, Kenny, Yanglin and Glenda.

Saw Kewin in Somerset ._. ( Suay much?? )
Went to look for Desmond in Ngee Ann City.
It was hell crowded.
Kenny walked in front, Jiawen in front of me, Me behind Jiawen and I thought Glenda and Yanglin behind me.
But, the worst thing is.
With everybody squeezing, its like people are molesting your buttock.
Do you know????
After meeting Desmond, we squeezed our way back through to walk back.
Then we walked to Dhoby Gaught.
Ended up getting sprayed by Niggas, Chinese, Malays and even Europeans.
Went Plaza Sing to buy tickets for Alvin and The Chipmunks 2.
Went to somehow '' shower '' in the toilet.
Eat at macs and Yanglin went home.
After eating macs, went up and slacked again.
Then me and Jiawen went to prize station.
I caught a toy.
Then went back up.
Saw Francis Girlfriend.
Then went into the cinema.
Saw Desmond Phua.
Watched the movie, and went back home.
Glenda accompanied me to take the bus. Thanks ;mua

Either way or so, it's still Christmas.
So happy holidays. :D

Why'd you come online to make me feel so bad?
4 weeks already, and I'm not over yet?
It's already bad enough that I can't talk to you because you ignore me.
But seeing you online, shatters me.
I'm still wondering what I said wrong.

I can't joke?

Seriously, I can't joke with you guys?
If you don't want me to joke around when you have absolutely no mood.
Jolly well tell me first ok?
Instead of scolding me like there's no tomorrow.
I really hate this alright?
You think you would get angry and I wouldn't?
Oh please, I also have feelings.
I also have emotions.
Don't tell me I can't feel your frustration pressing into my brain.
One day, is enough of scolding.
Just one day.
Not everyday or forever.
I can't take it while you all can.
What is this? Never ending scolding?
Seriously, I'm going nuts these few days.
I don't really like it.

Don't think you will go all sky high and sorts after venting on me.
You know me yourself, you pressed buttons on my head.
Now I'm going to press yours further through.

You hate me right now, so be it. For what I've said offended you, I apologise sincerely.
For the way you talk to me, think about the way that I would feel.
I've never said I wanted to phone people.
I didn't even mention about phoning people.
If my words offended you, your actions ticked my nerves.
Thank YOU for ticking me off.

I'm losing my mind each day.
Seems like everyone is pressing me.
Well, not exactly everyone though.
Somehow, I miss last year.
Everything was so fun.
New year's coming soon.
Got to study, real hard.
My family holds high hopes for me.
Yeah, I do too.

Edited, Johnathan says: I love nana ;mua

Tic tok

I SMSed with MinBin didi during the night and well, conferenced with Jiawen, Ken, x3BodyArt and Bryan.
Those 3 guys, are really very epic.
Drink beer and go crazy.
I think I fell asleep while talking.
Dosen't matter. HAHAHA.

Currently trying to download as many songs as possible.
Old ones, new ones.
Which ever is okay with me.
All I know is my phone has no particular song that I want to hear.
Either I heard it till I'm tired of it, or I'm just tired with it.

So Friday I'll be over you.

Exploit.

I slept during 4am in the morning last night.
Ended up waking up in 4pm in the afternoon.

Played and chatted with Minbin didi the whole day.
So funny.
OH.
THE SCREENSHOT.
I GOT.
Jiawen's webcam.
HAHAHA.







Grats to Desmond, aka -Cipherus- on third in expert arena!




I sio-ed in audition.
Nice one yo.
Can't take a joke?
Don't take it so seriously then.
You ain't happy, I'm not happy cause you ain't happy with me.
I'm serious.

Meteor showers

Talked on phone last night with Jiawen and Melvin.
I laughed, hardcore.
Me and Jiawen kept saying funny things.
That make me well, laugh.
The time that Kamilia ran into the train station door when it was closing, classic.
The time that we were in Escape Theme Park and her hair flew into my mouth, genius.
Not to mention the Haunted House that the five of us, Oxy, Chris, Me, Jiawen and Kamilia were so afraid to walk inside, ended up being happy just outside.
I miss the times, where we all used to hang out and play.
It was so damn fun.

I took 2 pictures of my dog when she was sleeping on my bed.
Cartoon dog.
LOL





My christmas present from my dad.
Spent almost 200 bucks for these 3 items.
Expensive okay ):
But I really love them.
Thanks dad!



Okay. This is what I saw yesterday around Sembawang Temple God Of Wealth.
Dad says that this is the '' Ray Of Lights ''.
Also known as '' The Ray Of Hope ''
He said it was really rare.
But it was really really really pretty.
So I took 9 pictures of them.
After leaving the temple, the clouds shaped of 3 people. ( I didn't take the photo cause I was in the car, a little giddy at then. )
It was like, 2 fat guys and 1 thin one standing next to each other.
Like the ones I saw in the temple.
I was like woah.



















Minbin didi,
I hope you would try to forget her.
No worries, your dajie here to the rescue.
You don't have to concern me that much.
I can handle things myself.
But if ever you need somebody to talk to, tell me.
I'll be there, to just listen to what you want to say.
Probably tell you right from wrong. ( But I would not so, TEEHEE. )
All that matters is you are alright.
That lightens my worries a bit.

Treasures, they are worth to be kept safe with you all along.
Once you lose them, you lose your mind.
I've learned to understand imperfection and complexity.
Now it all comes into one thing on my mind.
I'll protect my every treasure till my last breath decides.
No hope to accumulate efficiency doing useless actions.
It is to kill all who avenges the sins undo.

Diabolicle.

Played with Jiawen and Mel on LoveStory private server.
Really fun with friends to play with you.
Met my classmate Bryan on that server. ( Wtf? )
Anyway.
I'm bored to death.
Death.
Death.
Death.
Death.
LOL.

Bye.

Incapability to hold you through.

Symphony as a sympathy

Played maple private server for 2 days with Jiawen .

For like 1 hour, I've rebirthed for like 100 times.
Then now the server is lagging???
LOL okay I know I'm noob.
But this is the furthest I went.
:x.
Don't blame meeeeeeeeee~

LOL.
Okay.
I think I'll go audition now.

Criss cross, you're dead.

Sky, stars and my heaven.

The nearest possibility to seek answers is to believe in yourself.
Not showing realization is your trouble to make.
Afflictionize your words, carry it into future possible actions.

I live for your entertainment.

Portable incapacity of your sins.

Yesterday chatted with Melvin and Jiawen on MSN.
Watched a lot of Ownage Pranks on youtube last night.
The three of us kept joking with each other.
While the both of them were on facebook.

Watched TV the whole day yesterday.
Dad bought KFC for dinner.

Went for arena last night.
I made it to 2nd round, then I could not make it to the third round.
):
I got last.
Okay, okay.
Imma go have my breakfast already.


Rise and shine yo.
This ain't done yet.

I laughed, for a full 30 minutes.

I can't believe that I eventually laughed continuously for 30 minutes.
Thanks to Yang and Jiawen.

Really, some people could be really that epic?
It's really very funny though.

Oh well.
Time for arena in Audition.
I hope to surpass people today and make it into the fourth or fifth round.
Never gotten that far before.


Three cheers for celebrating your misery.

Lights out, let's fight.

Met Jiawen, Yanglin and Terry.
Saw Yang, Afiq, Priscilla, Andre and Suaku at cube.
Suaku, Yang and Priscilla really changed a lot.
Suaku become more tanned. ( Niggaz )
Yang became more handsome ( A little. Don't so buay ba can? LOL )
Priscilla became really really cute. ( SERIOUSLY! LOL )

I went from home, to Causeway Point, to ToaPayoh, to Far East Plaza, to Takashimaya, to JCube, to Causeway Point and home again.
Watched New Moon.

Does not really make sense at all, the movie.
Totally no link.
I want to see more of Jacob ):
His 6 Pac and his short hair.
Oh god. ( Dreamy~)
LOL.
A little disappointed.
Thought that New Moon would be more exciting than Twilight.
But, Twilight is nicer than New Moon.
But New Moon has Jacob's fresh abs.
Woo.
LOL.

Okay okay.
I'd really have to get some sleep.
I'm kinda tired.

Shadows, tears, astonishing memoirs.
I've gotten rid of all things irresistible.
Instead, all I have is sights of you flashing through my mind.
Deep, dark shadowy gaze upon me.
Do you know, I can't see the lights beaming down on you?
Clearly, but surely.
You are, one magnificent creature.
But a slight change may cause disastrous course on your mind.
That is, your adrenaline rush.

Addiction? No way.

Boring.
I didn't went out for like 3 weeks?
Probably now I'm going out till well, late.
Currently waiting for that hoo-ha to bathe finish faster.
Oh well.
Time to go straighten my hair already.

Oh ya.
I coupled my brother ^-^.
Don't anyhow assume okay.
You and your mind would always fly till outer space :@.
Okay bye.


You will pay, big time.

Peace, love and harmony? That's not me.

Didn't post yesterday.
Was busy and well, I watched TV last night.
So there.
Off to school now.
Last day of doing duty. ( Yay! )
Okay seriously.

Lights departed, hands on.
Ready, get set, fight. Is what he thought.
Many don't occur that what most people thought they might lead to victory.
Whereas, they will strike a downfall.
Praying, that they never die.
But still, all hopes fail.
They fall into an oblivion.

Prehistoric moves, idiotic much?

Third day I'm having this grudge against you.

Caresses of you holding that bloody knife against your body,
plunge it into your throat.
I'll do a rock-a-belly bye bye for you.

To Yanglin.
Your thoughts finally came through.
I'm happy for you.
That girl, worth nothing less than a penny.
That guy, has a dinosaur sized brain.
Both suit each other very, very much.
Yup, without a little of my help, he wouldn't be this renowned.
But whatever. He'd lost his mind now.
To think how to end this friendship, it's impossible.
Never ever did started, seriously.
I won't occur that much.

Girl, oh-girl.
I'm happy you'd say so much stuff.
You are pulling strings on my nerves, one by one.
I'm so happy to pronounce you dead.
May I end your suffering, slowly.
May this grudge ferry you to hell's pure creativity.


The hovering fan on your ceiling, you looked outside your window.
There's a creepy tree howling.
Branches tapping onto your window.
You looked at the girl singing that sweet haunting lullaby above the tree.
Looking at you, smiling with sharp vampire-like teeth.
Blood oozing from its teeth.
The melody, turns to a screaming pitch.
Nightmares of haunting, deep into your mind.
Pray you won't ever see this.
That will be the most horrific sight you've ever seen.

Pathetic? Don't think so yo.

Come on. You think that's lame?
What about your answers?
Aren't they much lamer than ours?
Please, I'll pretty much admit to what I've said.
Now you don't and it's your fault.
You caused this problem and you said that we've caused this?
Guess what?
You've gone too far.
Know what?
You're not getting away with this.
I'm seriously not letting you get away with this.

I'm Satanic?
Nope.
I'm a pure bred hell machine.

I see you dying with your blood coming out from your eyes.

Irritated or Rational?

Can't believe people are getting rational right now.
Support her for all I care.
I've no idea why you wanted to say that.
But it's your choice.
You made me do that.
Don't think I go around saying people's back.
Don't even think that what I'm saying is trying to accuse people.
Read my words carefully before you decide.
Your point of view, your choice.
My meaning behind my words are truly seen through my explanations.
You don't get what I mean? Then don't grasp saying that I made you thought that I was choosing the words badly.

By all means.
Lie all you want.
Say a little excuse, and you are off the hook right?
I don't think so.
Not that soon.


Get this.
Revenge is never good.
Being avenged is because of repayment of sins.

Someone to love with my life in their hands.

Coughing badly.
Mom is discharging soon.
I've only met her like once?
Yesterday didn't go because she wants me to stay home.
Well, I am home.
Almost everyday ._.
Nothing much to post.
So I'll post one lyric.
The song is stuck in my head already.


Nickleback - Gotta be somebody

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my breath, could this be the end?
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, (when you're looking for) a diamond in the rough (cause you never know)
When it shows up, (make sure you're holding on)
Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

My destiny, lies within.

I kill the Sunshine, you pour the rain.

Boring.
Not really that active in audition though.
I went in, and eventually went out ._.
So. There.

Recently I've been viewing youtube videos, watching Anime, watching TV.
Making sandwiches, talking on the phone. Doing a hell lot of chores.
Playing my PSP. Fidgeting with my phone. Sleeping.
Kinda releases my time away from the computer.
I felt relieved about that.

Some videos on youtube.







These maple animations were very very well done.
Very nice o_o







Xinwei showed me this video.
Really very nice.



Have to go buy food for dog to eat already.
Maybe going cube later?
Have to visit mum ;shy.

I shove you a piece of my destiny unseen.

Geu Deh Ju Geum

That title above is the song on Full House OST.
Really very sweet.

Here's the translation though.
( No websites are good enough. Most of it are the same. )

Taken from: http://rainsonglyrics.blogspot.com/2005/12/full-house-ost.html

Geh Deh Ji Geum by Lim Jung Hee
[w/ English Translation]
*italics is the translation of song*

geudae jeeguhm nehgahsoom-eh doohluhwah sahrang-uhl mal hago eejyo
Come now inside my heart, You're telling me about love

kkoom-ee ahneegee-ruhl nah-neun gee-doh-haebwah-yo
I pray that this isn't a dream

neh maum-ee jjakoo geudaerahn sarahm noh-jee-malrago hahneh-yo
My heart keeps telling me that i shouldn't let go of you

yohkshi-meul neh-rah-myuh bah-boh-kahteun mahl-eul hahneh-yo
and that i should be greedy.. it's saying stuff that's stupid

ooh-yun-hee dahgah-ohn geudae sahrang-ee whenjee nah-suhl-jee ahnhah-jyo
Your love that came accidently.. it wasn't strange at all

hajeemahn yahksohk-dwen inn-yun-ee gee-eh sahrahng-ee dehl joohl mohl-raht-jyo
But I didn't know that our promised relationship/fate/destiny would become love..

johkoom hoo-myun geudae boh-neh-yah hahl-tendeh geuruhl jahshinee uhp-jyo.
Sometime later, I have to send you away.. but I don't have the confidence to do that

nah hoh-llo ee-don't geu-jahree-ruhl chajah ee-jeh doh-ah gahl thingy-indae
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back

dang-yun-han ill-in-dae wheh mahm-ee ah-poo-jyo
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt

geu-dae wuhn-ha-dtun sahrang-eul cha-ja eejae dohlahkal bboon-in-deh
Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted

haengbok-han geudae-ruhl oosoo-myuh boh-neh-yah hahl-ten-dae
I have to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile

neh noon-eul boh-myuh sarang-eul mahl-hah-jyo soo-chyuh-gahn sahrang-ee-jee-mahn
You tell me about Love while lookin into my eyes, but it's a lightly passing by (small/grazing) love

ee soon-gan nah-neun nuh-moo haengbok-hae-yo mahchi koom-eul koon gutd-chuhrum
I'm so happy right now, it's like i'm dreaming a dream

ee-jaeh-yah ahlrahsuhyo chuhoom-bootuh oo-rihn sahrang-hae-suh-dahneun guhl
Now you know that from the beginning we were in love

nah hoh-llo ee-don't geu-jahree-ruhl chahjah ee-jeh dohl-ah-gal bboon-een deh
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back

dangyun-hahn ill-iin deh whe mahm-ee ah-poo-jyo
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt

geudae wuhn-hah-dtun sahrang-eul chaja ee-jae dohrah gal bbon-eendeh
Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted

haengbok-han geudae-reul ooh-soo-myuh bohnehyah haltendae.
I need to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile

Neh-geh sarang-eul joomyun ahndeh-na-yo, geu-dae jungmal ahndae-nayo.
Can't you give me your love, Can you really not/Is it Impossible?

ee-jeh-nun geudae-reul ee-toh-rohk sarahng-ha-neun-deh
But now I love you so much...


That's it then.

Wasen't a need to do anything unessesary.

I guess I might not come in games already?
Felt very tired of it.
In all my years of my life had been nothing more else than playing online games.
I felt that I should settle down and study hard for my "N" levels.
I should really push myself up.
Mom told me to put up with Dad's current temper.
I told her just now that that day I almost felt like jumping down.
Mom encouraged me not to.
She stood by me and told me to bear with it for a week till she comes back home.
She told me that everything would be all right when she comes back.
I sure do so.

I should give up my thoughts on you.

Santa, thanks for calling me, trying your best to cheer me up.
I've been doing a lot of thinking.
Maybe, if I had liked you at first, things would have been much easier as it seems.
But, I don't want to cause much trouble to you.
Many thanks for supporting me.

Jiawen, you are always my precious being on Earth.
I'll never leave you, unless I really have to.
You are one main aspects in my life to see you have a good future.
I don't want you to have a hard life.
I'd expect a lot from you next year with your exams.
Study hard Jiawen.
I will tutor you if you want to.

Officially crazy.

Yay, I've changed my blogskin.
It was black at first.
Then Jiawen said its too black.
" PUT MORE WHITE "
So I put MORE WHITE.
But I still like a lot of grey.
So what the heck then.

I confessed with thy sins.

Despair.

I don't know why.
But I felt like posting this.


Jiawen :
You've been my treasure for probably the whole time since I've ever known you.
You want to search for my happiness.
I'm happy to see that.
But my happiness lies within you.
No matter who blames you, I'll protect you.
Who criticizes you, I'll scold them.
Hits you, I'll hit them back.
Makes you cry, I'll make them cry for their mom.
You are one girl, that makes me feel so happy to be proud as a sister of.
You don't have to help me get back.
You just have to be with me, and I'm satisfied enough.
However how much people say that I'm lesbianic?
They are probably wrong.
What I share is my love to her.
Not what seems homosexually.

Santa :
Thanks for comforting me when well, I asked you to.
Sorry for screaming on the phone.
Dad really pressured me.
I can't scream, cry, nor have somebody to talk to.
But you've made me stop.
Thanks for making me feel a bit better.
I appreciate it a lot.

T :
Though I don't know why you did that.
But, I just want to clear this on my head.
I can't tell you how I feel because I'm afraid it corrupts this.
Still, I have to say it.
All I know is, I can't get you away from my thoughts.
I know, I've been harsh on my words.
Probably because I'm stressed after my mom is in the hospital,
and I am really really sorry.
Though I have absolutely no idea why I'd choose to like you.
Even before I started to like you more, it kinda ended earlier than expected.
Don't give me the cold shoulder.
I don't like it.
In fact, it will make me more wary of you.
I can't say out all of what I felt, but I hope this reaches out to you to know what I am explaining.


I can't lie about how I am or how I feel.
I just feel very terrible to the core.

This takes more than what I could give to.

Stress, stress, and building up more stress.

I was thinking of jumping down the building yesterday.
But I couldn't bear to.

I kept thinking my life is miserable.
Or it really is miserable.
I'm just a little tired.
That's all.

I belong to me,
I don't belong to you.
My heart is my possession.
I be my own reflection.

depression

Mom is going to be discharged after two weeks.

I've totally no mood to play at all.
Felt like quitting games.


I don't like to ask for more, but I'd really want you to reconsider your words.
I think that I'm falling into depression.

hospitality.

Went to visit mom just now.
Her face is getting square-ish by the second.

Coupled Tsuna <-- This noob.
Okok. I'm playing audition, and I'm friggin bored.
Slept for like 4 to 6 hours?
I can last for the whole day till tomorrow morning.
Geesh.

Cradle me, and I'll say hi daddy.