You take me up, up, up.

Hi. I think I know why. Bye.

17

Hi, I'm 17 now.

I am supposed to be happy.

Read this, I AM supposed to be.

You really don't care, don't you?

It fucking hurts.

I'll be frank.

Few hours left, and I'm turning 17.

To be frank, for the past week. I've been thinking of nobody but you.

I don't even know whether I should talk to you or not.

I felt like I have to. I felt that I needed to.

Then again, I knew you wouldn't care.

I knew you wouldn't even bother.

I don't know what's pulling me back, but it's really disturbing me deep down to the core.

I can't stand this. I've been hallucinating. I've been dreaming. I've been wondering what will be the outcome of this.

I made birthday wishes the past few years ago, none of em' came true.

Well, I hope I will make a proper wish tomorrow, and I pray that my wishes would answer me. Positively of course.

I've been happy. But not really THAT happy. Occasionally, I've been thinking about this and I grew depressed. Though I think that I'm having a relapse.

Please fulfil this last wish. I'd be happy. For the moment.

Treasure what you have

Living life is like a living hell. Good things come and go, and shit happens to you.

Not that I'm complaining now. I don't see why people don't value others. Maybe it's their perspective. I don't know.

Thing is, we're all humans and we have feelings. Maybe words can be hurtful, but their intention is there to drive you nuts. Its easy to say things. But it is really hard to try it out. So why bother to try to hurt people?

To be frank, I'm not the best person out there, and certainly not the worst. But everybody has flaws, and we learn to accept these flaws. I mean, I also have flaws. Quite a number of them, but I'm trying to be nice to everybody around me. Come on la, how bad can society be?

If you as my friend or comrade, are unhappy with what I've been doing or anything, can't you just voice it out to me so that I can make amends? How difficult is that? I don't expect everything to be in a composition to state my flaws over and over again. But you wouldn't expect me to figure everything out myself out right? What's with the secretive issue?

Ironically, this is getting very awful. I'm not in deep shit, I'll admit that first. But really. Do not keep thinking that what you or whoever says is always right. There's no right or wrong answer. Do not blame everything on one person who started the fight.

Maybe I'm right, or maybe I'm wrong. Who cares anyway. This is my point of view. If you have anything against it, I'm fine. It's alright. Most of the things here I say about are from my perspective. Can't handle the truth, then don't argue with it.

Rage. Rage. Rage.

What I am commonly facing everyday in my entire life. Getting angry on all sorts of people. Yada yada yada.

I know I sound irrational and arrogant. But really, I just want somebody to hear me out so that I would feel comfortable. I don't need you to really listen my every word. I just want to say it out so that I can release my temper without doing anything harsh. It's just that simple. Listen to me and I'll be fine.

If you say my rants are very unreasonable, irritating, annoying, always the same. At least tell me that you do not want to hear me rant rather than telling me off after I rant to you.

Timing is essential. Whether you like it or not, just say what you feel like during the right moment.

Telling somebody off after they've been down just makes them crash and burn. In other words, worse. To be honest, people who are insensitive always put themselves first as their priority. Putting others second or maybe last. I don't know. As I said, it's my point of view. I'm sorry if I offended you but it's the truth beyond the words you tell me.

As you know, there are many different types of people in the world. Maybe like 1 in a 1000 would have a forgive and forget trait. It's hard to find people who can forgive and forget easily. Just like after quarreling then you have the intention to forget it because it's a waste of time and maybe forgive 'em after a couple of months maybe? Or after a broken relationship. I just noticed that this is out of topic~~~

Moving on, I don't need to tell people off. Seriously. But you people should really put yourself in others shoes. Try to see in their perspective. Maybe you'll realize that they too, are suffering because of you. I don't want this post to end up an impression of me being naggy or something. Anyway, in case you're wondering I'm particularly saying about somebody, I'm not.

I may refer to you, maybe you're wondering if I'm saying about you, I'm not.

Cause this post can be applied to anyone or everyone.

So there, this is my last post I'll fill in my blog.

Will I create a new blog? - I don't know. Perhaps in future I would.

Will I communicate with you? - Depends on the situation or my mood. Maybe I would.

Where will I be going? - Maybe I'll go out more. I've been dying to go out for months.

Will I change for the better? - Yes and no. A chance of 50/50.

Will I hate anybody for now till the coming future? - No, I don't think I can hold a grudge against anybody for so long.

p/s, if you do bother listening, why would you even say that it's annoying/irritating?

Junkie

Hello. I've gotten tired of society and its flaws. Please put me out of my misery. I'm begging you.

When I care for people, people ignore me.

When I help people, people push me away.

When I encourage people, people just look away as if they did not know me.

But the list goes on.

Seriously, if this is what I get for being too nice to people.

I shouldn't be doing this at all.

You all have your own problems. I understand.

But I am there to help. But nobody wants to because they felt that there is not a need to.

Maybe I should reconsider. I don't know. But really, its exhausting.

p/s. if you really hate my fake laughter, then i won't bother you. anyway, if i don't sms you. you won't even sms me to say hi unless you're bored and you have nothing to do. i'll just be by myself. ^-^ i'm sure that is what most of the people wants.

You were here just yesterday (2)

I've been really tired lately.

Off to bed now.

You and I together

No matter what happens

even when the sky is falling down

I'll promise you

that I'll never let you go

Adorable, hot and charming in one package

Okay, heads up.

This, is my ideal type. (insert many hearts)

Cute, funny, playful and caring. It's all in a package. WHO DOES NOT WANT HIM?

This is MIR aka Bang Cheol Yong from music group called MBLAQ.

I super adore him, he's fucking cute!

Really cute max!

The ultimate.

Now, that's what you call a stylist full-on tattoo.

It's time to introduce, Miyavi.

Though, I can't say much about him, he's just amazing.

Calm and content voice and I'm very much surprised that his wife is really pretty and he has a daughter.

Good for you Miyavi! Hope to see your new songs soon!

/p.s , He's my inspiration for putting a tattoo on my body. I'm still deciding which one should I put on!

Cross game, and cosmic worlds!

At last, comes the band with the melodramatic electro melody.

Band: Alice Nine

I super love the vocalist actually, but then it changed to Nao, then Saga. LOL. No idea why.

Let's start from the left - right

Tora - Guitarist

Nao - Drummer

Shou - Vocalist

Hiroto - Guitarist

Saga - Bassist

Actually, Saga's really handsome. LOL. But Shou's my ideal couple and Hiroto's fierce, but cute. In a way.

Prince and Princesses, as well as Nobles

Introduction of band: Versailles

When I first heard of "The Revenant Choir", I thought it was some kind of middle aged song.

Apparently, they've proved me wrong.

And now, I adore them because one of their guitarists plays the most astonishing guitar solo I've ever heard.

New member, 1st picture

Red hair: Masasshi - Bassist

Blue highlights: Yuki - Drummer

White hair and black highlights: Teru - Guitarist

Blonde hair in the middle: Kamijo - Vocalist

Blonde hair in the right: Hizaki - Guitarist

And my inspiration and adoration is Hizaki! Super cool lor.

It's like he makes all the females look uglier. LOL.

2nd Picture,

2nd person on the left: Jasmine You - Bassist (Deceased)

R.I.P, Jasmine You

What am I obsessed with?

I'll make introductions here.

This band is the most awesome-st and probably the sexiest band I ever know -squeals-

From the left - right

Aoi - Guitarist

Reita - Bassist

Ruki - Vocalist

Kai - Drummer

Uruha - Guitarist

And of course, my utmost favourite is Kai and Ruki.

KAI'S SO FUCKING CUTE!