Oh my god !
Sorry !
Been busy playing maple and not going to blogger to post .
I'm lazy :B !

Let's recap a little .
For holidays only .
LOL .

Last last Saturday ,
Went to bunk with Jaslyn , Kenny , JiaJun , Kamilia , Yanglin and Jiawen and Syafiq .
Nothing much because I can't exactly remember .
HAHA

Last Saturday ,
Went to bunk with Kamilia .
Played audition , then rakion , then audition again .
LOL .
Then Yanglin , Jane , Ahdan , Moments , Leon , Alvin came .
Then followed by Jiawen , Syafiq , Afiq , JunJie , Oxy , Coca , Nightkids .
Ahh .
Lazy .
Then play play play comp .
Then go food court .
Then go home .
LOL .

Last Sunday ,
Went to Causeway Point with Yanglin .
Then we went to watch Confessions Of A Shoppaholic .
Then we went to get neoprints at timezone o-o .
Then ate kfc .
Then went home .

TODAY !
Hohoho today .
There's one dead frog .
LOL .
The eyes are white .
And the heart which looks like a tongue is stuck out of its mouth .
And the frog is sitting upstraight .
So damn bloody erxin cans ?
The Indians after school ,
Go step on the frog .
Like so eww !
Then they place the frog on the dont know what yellow thing .
Then the frog's heart bursted .
And bled .
I was like OMGOMGOMGOMG .
LOL .

Ahahahahahaha .

Now for a question to you guys :D
Reply in my tag box k !
:D .

If there's a next genetation , what do you want me as ?

1. Gang
2. Friend
3. Bestie
4. Cousin
5. Lover
6. Sister / Brother
7. Girlfriend / Boyfriend
8. Sex Mate
9. Pornstar
10. Wife / Husband
11. Enemy

Please reply :D !

Tags replied :
Kamilia - Got la . Got miss you la . LOL
Jaslyn - Relinked .
Jena - :o . See ya .
Syasya - Relinked .
Ivan - nana-natsumi@hotmail.com
Junjie - Lazy to tag luh . LOL .

Last Saturday's






Last Sunday's











Today's

Hehe haha hoho :x

No judgement in your eyes .

Hello .
Today is just to rant out my feelings .
Gahh .
._. .

I'm sorry I've been taking you for granted not knowingly and you tried to make me relax and maintain my temper .
I'm sorry for scolding you for no reason .
I'm sorry for abusing your love .
I'm sorry for always being so selfish about myself and not considering your feelings .
I'm sorry for all the mistakes that I've done without apologising nicely to you .
I'm sorry for the grief that I caused you .
I'm sorry that I'm a burden to you .
I'm sorry and I want to beg for forgiveness .
Most importantly .
I'm sorry if I'd say this that might cause so much trouble ,
I love you .

I don't expect anything from you .
But just by telling you this ,
Gives me some peace to sleep .
I'm really sorry .

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ...
I CAN USE MY PHONE ALREADY .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
IM SO HIGH THAT IM HYPERVENTILATING .
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
IM SO FUCKING HAPPY .
IM SO FUCKING GAY .
IM SO FUCKING GLAD .
IM SO FUCKING SHOCKED .
IM SO FUCKING HYPER .
OHMYGOD .
NANA BREATHE .
BREATHE .
BREATHE .
OK BYE .
IM SO FUCKING HAPPY THAT I OVER HYPERVENTILATED .
I NEED MORNING MEDICATION .
THANKYOU .

Oh yeah babeh .
Today I'm gonna go lan :D !
Mother kpkb early in the morning -_____-
Anyway ,
I have cheat codes for Left4Dead and IM EAGER TO USE IT .
LOL .
So nervous and so eager .
Don't know which one is the one I feel now .
LOLOLOLOL .

My song(s) of the day :D ! :
The GazettE - Hyena
Mitsuoka Masami - Last Cross
Olivia - A little pain
The GazettE - Taion

Apparently its all in Japanese .
HAHAHA
I'm so high today .
:B :B :B :B :B :B :B :B .

This morning ,
I dreamt that I'm in left 4 dead .
With some other more people .
LOL .
So scary sia the dream .
Suddenly got ghost one .
And I dreamt of The Rock .
LOL .
OHYA .
I ALSO DREAM THAT MY BROTHER HAS A HAIRY MUSTACHE ON HIS UPPER AND LOWER LIP .
HIS TONGUE ALSO GOT HAIR .
LOLOLOL .
THEN I DREAM THAT WE CHANGE BODIES .
AND I SHAVE ALL THE HAIR AWAY FROM THE FACE .
HAHAHAHA .
SO FUNNY SIA .

Sorry that yesterday I'd suddenly mood-swinged you .
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Sudden temper-ment .
I'd just hope you'd understand .

Disorted Daytime .

Wow bored .
Yesterday just watched finish NANA the anime O_o .
Funny that 707 is also a devil's number ?
HAHA .
Though nana is 7 in Japanese .
LOLOL .
I miss shooting headshots in zombified mayhem game of Left 4 Dead .
:\
Their headshots with popped heads are so cute !
:\
Thinking of changing blogskin .
But I'm lazy .
Aiyo .
-_____-
I'm still waiting for my phone bills to get paid .
2 more weeks please !
D: .

I had a nightmare today .
But I know ,
That the nightmare is going to really appear
In my own eyes .

I'd no strength to see you go .

Went to follow parents to bring my brother to work .
Ate noodles in katong .
Went back home .
And prepared to go out to lan with Kamilia , Jiawen and Yasha .
Reached lan ,
Played Left 4 Dead .
I kept on scolding Kamilia , because she kept dying .
And I'm the person who kept saving her ._.
:o .
Then played audi .
Then went back .
Upon going back home ,
Father and mother already at the car there .
I went inside the car ,
And my father is screaming at me ._.
Then went to sheng siong buy seafood .
Then went to my father side grandma house .
Played with my cousins ,
ate dinner .
And went back home .

Let's recap on yesterday's bunk adventure .
Went to Admiralty to meet Kamilia .
Took the train ,
Straight to bunk .
Played audition , then rakion .
Waited for Jiawen and Yasha .
They arrived with Junjie .
So we played audition awhile .
Then chiong to rakion .
Then Yanglin came .
Play finish rakion ,
Went to have dinner .
I did not eat ,
Cause I kept coughing and felt like puking ._.
So went back to bunk .
Open comp .
And played Left 4 Dead .
We played 1st time map .
Pass .
2nd time ,
Jiawen ended up jumping off the building and died .
-______- .
Then went to mrt station .
Upon reaching Marina Bay station ,
We wanted to switch trains .
But ,
When we walked halfway ,
The train door is going to close ,
So me , Jiawen and Yanglin chiong inside .
Then Yasha and Kamilia slowly walk ,
Then run go in .
Kamilia ended up flying inside the train like a Wonderwoman .
Chasing her WonderBra ,
And Dropping her WonderPanties .
hah .
Then we laugh all the way in mrt .
Saying that Kamilia is a wonderwoman .

Ok thats all .

" Have you ever loved and lost somebody ?
Wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry .
Can't you see ?
That's the way I feel ,
About you and me , baby .
Have you ever felt that your heart was breaking ,
Looking down the road you should be taking ?
I should know 'cause I loved and lost ,
The day I let you go . "

My chest feels heavy when I passed by the area that you lived in .
I'm sorry that I've made such stupid remarks .
I'd no courage to tell you .
More over ,
No time .
I don't know ,
How long will I take just to tell this to you .
It's slitting me .
I'd know ,
That I love you .
Can't get it over .
But it's true .
Hah .

` I'm Your Horror Fairytale .

` You're my sacred prayers / `

Wow .
Eventually I'm lazy to post nowadays ._.
So I`ll post about Friday 13th :D .

It's not really that unlucky though .

Went to school ,
Actually thinking of ponning .
But getting back my report book .
So I had no choice .

Okay ,
School was a total bore though .

I'll skip to CME .
Get back report books .
Saw my marks .
And I was like .
What The FUCK .
MY GRADES DROP SO LOW .
:\ .
Must stop being absent minded already .

See my grades :

English Language (SYLL A) - 61.1 Grade :4

Chinese N(A) - 37.7 Grade : U
Mathematics (Syllabus A) - 50.6 Grade : 5
Science (Physics, Chemistry) - 68.7 Grade : 3
Combined Humanities ( Social - 45.4 Grade :U
Studies , Geography )
Design & Technology - 43.3 Grade : U

Fuck sia .
3 U- Grades .
And highest I get is combined science ._____. .
And Eileen even beat my passing mark ._.
She failed 2 ,
I failed 3 .
@$&)@()$(*^
Next term ,
Time2Chiong already .

Ohya .
This afternoon .
Went to lan .
Actually with Jiahao .
But he has to wait another 1 hour for one comp .
But I reserved one .
HAHAHA .
But .
Here's something .
We found a 20 dollar note .
Then we share half .
1 person 10 bucks .
But since Jiahao borrowed me my money ,
He has to repay me a little bit back :D .
SO I HAVE EXTRAS :B .
When I reached home ,
My father bought me a NANA Anime CD to watch .
:o .
I was like --- > O____________O "
Suddenly buy for me that CD .
Then ,
My father bought 1 whole duck to eat .
I asked if they eat already ,
They said they did .
But when I opened the thing ,
It's like ,
They did not eat it at all O______O
By the way ,
I'm hungry .
-______-
But I bought dapao .
So ,
I ate my dapao with the duck lor .
But ,
I was about to vomit ._. .
Can't eat the duck stall again .
Will puke .____.
For me though .
O_O .
Sick of it .

I'll post my picture on another post ._.
Can't post here .
Chatting with ahdan and jiawen in msn though :D .

Wee woo wee woo wee woo wee woo .
:o .
Just finished watching Twilight .
And now , I'm loading Bedtime Stories .
:D .

I'm freaking bored .
Urgh .
Fell down at school during recess hours .
And the injury is un-bear-a-ble .
It hurts ,
Alot .

I mean ,
Some of my leg hair has dropped off .
And , I have a red and white patch on my knee .
)#(%&
So painful .
:|

Bor-ed .
Forget it .
I'll just go ahead and eat donuts :D !

You're my sacred prayers ...
I miss you so .

Major bing bang boom .

Today was ..
Awful though .
Moody throughout the early wee hours of the morning .
End up flaring through the whole time at school .

Well .
I'm still flared up .
And I don't know how to relax .

My muscles are cramping and aching .
Argh .
Kill it please .

._.

Anwar ,
k .
Wuji come tio taiji with me .
It's your fucking fault for you to shout at the early morning .
You malay boy so what ?
Dick big ?
Ballz big ?
Or your ego is big ?
If your ego is so damn fucking big ,
I would go down there ,
And crush down your ego .
Want to step pro in English when talking ?
Think what ?
You're an American ?
Oh-Puh-Lease .
Stop it .
You're annoying pain in the ass .
Want to act like an American ,
Also cannot make it .
Pathetic much .
Think that you're a boy ,
You'd scare me so much ?
I'd laugh .
Say what ,
" You want me to be mad like last year ? "

LOL .
Please la hor .
You mad until you CRY .
So lame .
Step fierce nia .
So humji dog .
Infront of DM room and CRY and BEG like DOG .
You're a dog la .
Not fit for class chairman la .
Go be a mutated dog .
Go fetch people's belongings la dog .

Want play mother ?
I play yours la ,
Since you want play my friend's mother and my mother .
I play yours until you bo wei gong ,
Until you lan lan .
Masi ho ?

Lame dog .

Mitsuoka Masami - Last Cross

Last Cross - Masami Mitsuoka

Mitsuoka Masami
-
Last Cross

Nee futari ha guuzen deau unmei janakatta
Anataga saigo ni nige kon da basho ga
Tada watashi datta no ka mo shire nai
Sore domo sorega hitsuzen no haji mari datta
Houmutta itsuga no kioku no kakera tachi ga
Iroaseru koto sae mo mada deki nai mama ni
Ima de mo kawara zuni omoi da shiteru
Kitto subetega itsuka tsunagari atte
Kie nai you ni to

Sabitsue ite iru konna jidai no nake de
Itsu datta watashi ha koko kara inotteru
Mou kore ga saigo de aru you ni to
Anata o kuru shima seru subete no momo ni
Hayaku o wai ga kuru you ni to

Nee futari de chikatta hi no mabushi ku hagayui eien
Hontouha donna momo yori ibitsu datta koto
Sou hajime kara kizuite ita no
Aruki dasu sono saki jouuji ka wo se otte iku koto
Shitte te mo dare yori ashita o misueru tame ni
Nani kaga sotto koware hajime te shimau mae ni
Itsu demo hanasa hai you ni giri shime ta
Kitto subete ga itsuka kasanariatte
Omoeru you ni to

Sabitsu ite iru konna keshiki nake de
Dare datte kira meki o zutto saga shiteru
Sou kitto ashita ha hokoreru you ni to
Anata o shiwase ni suru subete no mono ga
Watashi no chikuku ni aru you ni to

Sabitsu ite iru konna jidai no nake de
Itsu datte watashi ha koko kara inotteru
Mou kore ga saigo de aru you ni to
Anata o kurushima seru subete no mono ni
Hayaku owari ga kuru you ni to

In the anime translation :
( A little bit of it )

Our dazzling smiles on the day that we both swore upon
That was the only eternity .
But really , it was warped beyound anything else .
Didn't you notice that from the start?
Even if I knew that from the very first step
you would be bearing a heavy cross .
Above all in order to focus on tommorow,
Before anything begins to crumble .
You are always by my side, gripping me tightly .
Someday, everything would definitely
Overlap and come together, reminding me of you .
In this age of decay and corruption,
I pray for this always .
Already, it seems like this is the last time
In order to hasten
The end of your suffering ...

My father go hongan la .
Kanina cb .
If I'm over parental control ,
Might as well put me under probation la .

A little bit , a little bit nia ,
Want call police .
Nabu cb .
I go missing then happy is it ?
Fuck you mama high .
Want call police hor ?
Wait 24 hours before you call then can make a report lah hor .
Want blame my friends for nothing right ?
I can blame you for calling your fucking so called girlfriend from don't know simi lj country to cut off my phone bill la hor .
Is your fucking fault .
And your fucking problem ,
Not mine .

Go hongan la .
_|_

Here's the thing .

Two Secondary Ones want to pengwei with me .

(1N3)
One say ,
She never spread rumors about Cassoline and Did not write about Somaline losing her " Virginity " When Somaline did not .
Want me spread you rumors about you having sex with a stranger ?
Don't want right ?
So shut the fuck up .

(1N1)
Another one says ,
She hit Jiahao because he disiao her .
But ,
She was really violent .
Eh .
Want hit right ?
Hit with care lah .
He may say it is not painful .
But you're not him right ?
So you don't know whether its pain or not right ?
So don't assume that you can hit him like that .
And yet ,
You called your senior short .
Wow .
And yet you are shorter than me .
So I call you short ,
You happy ?
No right ?
So diam can ?
I heard that somebody just scolded Kwee Kiat when we're walking down to the stairs when we find you guys outside 1N3 classroom .
Don't want tell me the truth ?

Here's what you will see / get / hear during Monday .

I will come by to your class ,
And I will ask you again nicely .
Whether you want to tell me the truth ,
Or you want to get scolded or beaten .
I don't know what I may do because I depend on my temper at that moment .
So be prepared .
And .
If you want to pengwei ?
Hah .
I call all the witness ,
All say you got spread and say .
And see how you talk .
I'm being very nice to you at school already .
Now I'm telling you this .
Unless you tell me the truth ,
I won't scold or even lay a finger on you ,
Now this is what I promise .
Another thing that I need to get back is ,
The truth that you have been hiding .
Tell me ,
And I swear I won't hurt you .
At least you told me .
So I can let you off .
BUT .
If you did not tell me the truth ,
And kept denying it ,
I can stalk you every weekday at school ,
And stand outside your class ,
And just wait for you .
And ask you every single day .
To tell me that particular truth .
Deny more ,
And I will bother you more .
I can even stalk you ,
Until you reach your house .
Now isn't that nice ?

I shall not continue further ,
As what it leads for Monday .

Oh ya .
Hands Up : 615 combo ,
436 perfect ,
314 great ,
89 cool ,
14 miss ,
470176 score .
I've improved :D !
Have to improve my perfect though .
Teehee ! :D .



My chest feels heavy when I can't tell you .
But I can sleep when I tell you what's hurting me .

Oh wow .
I'm bored .
I want to sms please ._.
One whole month to wait .
Fuck ._.

Hahh .
Sucks .
Here's today's test papers .
Geography : 11 / 25 ~> { Failed ! }
Chemistry : 23 / 30 ~> { Passed ! }

Oh my oh my oh my .__.
Teeeeheeeeheeeeeheeeheee .
I'm finding these The GazettE Songs :D !
Tell me if you have them .
AND SEND TO ME PLEASE D: !

The GazettE -
Worthless War
Best Friends
Last Bouquet
People Error
Anatano Tame No Kono Inochi
Nausea & Shudder
Ruder
The Social Riot Machine
Maximum Impulse
Kasou

Thanks loads loads loads :o .

I`m missing you every moment .
I guess .
:o .

Wow .
I'm listening to Muttons To Midnight .
:o .

Hah .
Test papers got :
Maths , 21/40 { Passed ! }
Chinese , 15/50 { Failed ! }
Physics , 18 1/3 / 30 { Passed ! }
Design And Technology , 13 / 30 { Failed ! }

I'm waiting for English and Chemistry tomorrow .
I hope I pass though .
:x .

Low Eng Zhi .
Get 40 / 40 in maths . ~> First In Class .
AND THEN .
27 1/2 in Physics ~> First In Class .
I wanna kill him please .____.

Class was a bore as usual .
So I`ll skip way until after school .
Went to the bubble tea shop with Jiahao and KweeKiat .
Talked talked talked and watched Jiahao perform card tricks .
And bing bang boom .
We both pei-ed Kwee Kiat back to school and Library .
So I did librarian duty .
Until 5.30pm .
Fun sia .
:x .

So went home .
Pissed off of my father .
( I want a SIM card to just to sms ._. )
Gahh .
I`ll need to wait for one month for my bill to get paid .
One whole month .
Without smsing , talking , or anything .
Gahhhhhhhh .
Fuck sia .

I'm sian-ned .

RARH

Gahh .

I'm sorry .
I really felt like saying it to you .
But I just could not take the risk .
I'm really tired of waiting to find the right time to say that to you .
I'm having sleepless nights .
And I'm thinking of you .
Ahh ..
.___.

Wow muttons to midnight prank calling two girls .
So funny :x .

I love you .
I'm sorry .

Hah .
My phone bill is cut off-ed .
Haven't pay the bill .
:o .
So I guess I won't be able to sms you guys then .
Hmm .
Time to post what I felt .
Eventually .
:o .

I see ..
So , I guess I'm not able to tell this to you .
I really can't tell .
I might add on to your troubles .
I'm sorry .
I tried to help .
But ,
I made you more bugged .
But I have to say ,
That I'm sorry .
I love you so .

Hah
I felt so foolish to have said that word to hurt you back then .
I realized my mistakes though .
Teehee ...
Though i don't always type with dots on my words ,
I guess I will now huh .
Boy , I really am sorry .
But I couldn't tell you .

All I was left was regrets to say those words .
Gahh .
I felt like dying .
:D ......

Gahh .
Im freaking fucked up .
Fucked up sorts of feelings .
With fucked up time .

I gotta stop saying fuck .
.__.
Fuck it .

I'm troubled , lost , I eventually cried , and I'd wished someone would help me now .

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck .
Fuck you till you fly .
-_-

I can't post out what I felt though .
It will only make me feel more troubled .
So then .
Goodnight .

I`d be your punching bag still .





I don't deserve a second chance ,
Don't I ?
Hah .
I`d knew it .
It always happens to me .

Tags replied ,
Jena - Lol ok . See ya Tommorow then .
JiaJun - Will relink soon .
Yanglin - Lol cucumber . I use suaku's jelly dick then you know . :D !
Huii - Thanks :D !