O.U.T

Been long since I've posted a picture. WAIT AWHILE. Cause I'm under construction :D

Drawings? LOL

Though it is not nicely drawn, but it's my damn effort okay!!! I was B.O.R.E.D. So I did it. Hehe.

Shiver me timbers.

Apparently my classmate is freaking me out. Creepy much? I don't want to elaborate much further. BUT IT REALLY REALLY FREAKS ME OUT MAN! DAMN.

Bytheway, MY VIVAZ IS BACK!!!!

I should be posting more

Hi. I just realized that I have readers from different countries. Hello! I may not speak very good English, but I hope that you would continue to read on my blog. I promise I will update more frequently and if possible, add in a few pictures :D.

Mad excited cause there are a few viewers from Japan. Because I totally love Japan.

Konnichiwa! Watashi Natasha desu!

To be frank, I didn't know other people from other countries might encounter to my blog. I'm super happy.

Thanks for reading and I promise to make my blog interesting rather than being all so boring! :D

Of all people, why me?

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Enough with the grief. Enough with all these nonsense. It's time I step up to my game.

I may need a few adjustments. So for now. I'm under construction.

It's time for me to wake up. I'm not the usual person that everybody used to love. Usually not that stressed, having sudden blows, getting some heart explosion or even slapping myself. I've gone and I don't know how to return. It's been very edgy cause every turn is a wrong turn. I ended up in the same direction over and over again. I can't start afresh because I have a stubborn brain. I can't get rid of my habit of expressing because I'm too open about myself. But lately I've been too quiet and I kept everything to myself and my mind was bombarded with words in an abnormal manner. Been talking to myself lately and I don't even know why.

2011 was a very bad year for me. Year of the Rabbit but the rabbit luck ain't coming for me. I'm struggling. I feel alone. I can't do anything to help myself. Just why is being a human so difficult? I've been building up tension everyday and I released it full blast. The tears were like a water tap. Free flow of water.

But I'll feel like a total idiot if I lost my friend because of this. But because of the constant 12am sleep 6am waking up is getting me out of control. I can't sleep earlier because I can't. I can't wake up late because I've school. Most important of all. I can't confide myself, instead of me. So it's like bottling up all my feelings again and it falls into the category called "Tension".

I don't know how long I can last. But I'm going to go mad.

Really, really mad.

Just lost it.

I just lost my motivation. It's not me. But why?

Sometimes.

Sometimes the best things are to be kept and left unknown but only you yourself who knows. But I often dread the fact that I've been facing things too negatively. Most probably, most words are meant for others. Not me. But, I'm immune to it. So be it.

Pounding, like a heartbeat.

Momma told me not to lie.

I'm sorry momma, I told a thousand lies.