Somehow

Realistic dreams turn to reality.
Triads and mafians turn to fight through the war for victory.

I fight for things that I could never ever get, and earn for each play.
Pray for glory, or pray for nothing.

One who wishes light shining upon the wisher's thoughts,
one which does a foul play and lit the gloomy dark on the wisher's thoughts.

A call for help is a call for distress.
If ain't nobody there to save you, you'd end up having a coma in your mind.

And the invisible wall blocks your way to escape,
making you lose faith, drown in your own senses.


Okay that's weird.
._______.
Somehow these words suddenly appear on my mind.
I've randomly typed them out.

My mind's set not secured.
A little off somehow.

Mine and only mine.

Recently watching some maple music videos.
Quite nice though :O

I wonder where they get those song I never ever listened before.
LOL













okay done. LOL

Hachi

Movie review from me:
A very good movie.
Really tear-dropping. ( Beware for girls, bring more tissues. You might cry, a lot )
5 stars *****
Hachi for the win!







( real statue in Shibuya Train station )





See the eyes. So cute :x



I just love puppies. LOL









This movie made me cry, a hell lot of times.
Overall, I really like it.
I like it a lot.

That's all then.


True thy oneself wonders, the mind yonders up till thoughts left unclear and never shown.

I keep climbing, hoping things would change.

Preparing to go out soon.
Nothing much to post though.
I really like the songs I've just added into my playlist.

Big bang ( Seung Ri ) - Strong baby
Big bang - Number 1

Both really very nice.
:x

The rainfalls on my windows and the coldness runs through my soul,
and the rainfalls, oh the rainfalls.
I don't want to be alone.
I wish that I could photoshop on our bad memories,
cause the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks.
Won't leave me alone.
- Utada Hikaru - Come back to me

Disgusting

I saw something really disgusting.
You think you are well matured enough?
Going around, saying people are small kids?
So what if you are old?
Get more wrinkles please.
In fact, get on with your life.
Stop commanding or commenting others on how they should lead their life.
What are you?
Are you this pathetic?
Bad enough that I saw my blog link on google.
You are all trying to defame others aren't you?
Well better not, you are excluding you and your stupid past, flaming for young teens like us leading the so called "small kids".
If we were such "small kids", you are such dumb holes to actually find "small kids" to blog about.

Singapore too many "old people".
No wonder "old people" population in Singapore is getting higher rather than youths.
Tsk.
First and for most,
they should die, earlier.
Seriously.
And old people act cute?
God. Get going already.
You are not that cute, at all.
Don't talk like a small kid.
I'm not talking like a small kid.
I'm speaking like a small kid who is constantly growing up.
If that's your side view then get lost.

The links:

Link1

Link2

Summer flow in the night take flight and glow

I overslept and didn't go to school.
Oh well.
LOL.
Being random these few days.
Don't mind me.
^-^

i scream out loud but only the answerless sunset continues to burn
the sun rises, the sun sets, i become saddened by the sunset glow
the moon rises, the moon sets, memories of you become dull too

Happy 1 month

Been real busy these few days.
Finally the body's gonna cremate tomorrow.
But I have to go back to school on Friday.
What a bummer.
But I've really missed out on a lot of lessons.
It's going to cut my time, a lot.


Once again, Happy 1 month for audition couple, Minbin didi.


Withstand the fall.

Happy 19th Birthday Wenbo

26th January:
Happy 19th Birthday Wenbo!
Fold more roses in class okay.
LOL.
Very pretty.
:x

Jiawen today pei-ed me go to my ahgong songka.
Thanks for the company la ;mua.
See me so lonely there if you not there ): !!!
All my relatives bo chup me one ): !!
LOL

When we went to Macs to have midnight snacks, saw these 2 guys who were like gay.
LOL.
THEN HE CAT WALK TO TOILET.
SHAKE THE SEXY BUM YOU KNOW.
LOL.

27th January.
0233 in the midnight and here I am posting instead of sleeping.
HAHAHA.
I don't want to go to the songka later.
But I've no choice.
Need to do prayers ):
1530 hours till 2200 hours.
Pray that my knees and feet would not ache.
LOLOLOL.


Happy 1 month couple, Minbin didi.
:x

The smell of your asphalt still lingers in the air.

Happy 16th Birthday Ken

First and for most, Happy Birthday Ken.


Went to the songka today.
Tiring as hell.
More tiring seasons as to come for tomorrow and Wednesday.
Aw.
I'm missing two school days ):
Gg.
LOL.

Currently adding and deleting up songs for my playlist :O
I see no songs so I add more songs, indeed.
Mosquitos are currently biting on me and I didn't notice.
So I'm scratching my feet, constantly.
Irritating blood suckers.
Die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL

For some reason.
I absolutely have no idea why I love this picture a lot.



I think it's the magic of my beanie and my scarf :x!
Okay okay.
I'll stop posting now.
Bye~

You're the best thing I never knew I needed.

R.I.P - Ahgong

Rest In Peace - My Grandfather.
Passed away at 24th January 2010.
Lived for 81 years.
May you rest well in heaven.

Patronized

Watching Wallace and Gromit in A Matter Of Loaf And Death.
It's a movie.
Cartoon, of course.
Going-to-be 16 this year.
I don't feel like I'm 16.
I feel like I'm a 14 year old.

No worries then.

Pacman didi,
Cheer up already ):
Always so moody ):
I'm still trying my best to cheeeeeeeer you up okay?!!??!
Don't moody liao hor :x

I kinda like you, now. A lot more than usual.
This gut-cutting feeling.

Edit 2023;

Minbin di, why you run away from home ._.
Starting to worry for you already.
Never bring your phone + your money with you, makes me extra worried.
Hope you are alright now x.x.
Be home soon ):

Maniac

Went to meet Yanglin.
Went to find Jiawen in hospital.
Went to Plaza Singapura.
Went to buy headphones, beanie and a scarf.
Went home after that.
I'm tired.
Its like 4.10am in the morning.
So I'll go sleep.

:x

Presentable.

Bought another pair of jeans today.
I saw the faded jeans.
I really liked it.
I wanna buy.
LOL.
I kept thinking of buying my hat and those headphones.
I'm thinking of buying orange or white.
Or orange and white if there is one.
:x

Going out tomorrow.
Didn't post for two days because I'm a little busy and time-off.

Oh ya.
During lunch, Eileen ate Ice kachang, and burnt her tongue all at once ^-^

Creativity ftw!

Overwhelming affection - I'm getting to like you more

America's Suiteheart

Schooled as usual.
Ah, everyday is a normal school day.
Eileen didn't come today, again.
Dad installed the new TV on living room, and the one which was in the living room recently before, was placed in my brother's room.
Dad complained that the 40-inch LCD screen is too small, and wanna buy a 47-inch LCD TV.
Mad father.
Then I asked my mom, " Then the 40-inch inside my room? But no cable TV? "
She said, " Yah, got la. Got extra. "
I was like woah.
Planning to save up or wait for parents to give me money, to buy Chinese New Year clothes.
^-^

This is a song of honesty, I gave up my heart.
I tried to be all I could be.

Linger

Schooled as normal.
Went to IKEA during the afternoon.
Quite fun.
Spent 10.80bucks for a meal in IKEA for one salmon plate, mushroom soup and 1 paper cup.
Watched TV at home, then played Audition cause of new patch.
The song abracadabra makes me very high.
LOL.

The smell of your skin lingers on me now.

Webcam

Went to school as usual.
Went back home after Chinese tutorial.
Webcam-med with Jiawen.
So fun and so funny.
( I post this for fun, I know I look unglam HAHAHA )











All fucking funny. LOL.

Tomorrow's DNT trip is to IKEA!
From 2.15 or 2.30pm till 5pm.
Around Tampanies.
I think.
LOL :x!

You said you wanted more, all I've wasted for.
I'm not running from you.

Awake at night.

Yesterday did CIP.
Went to Mac's for breakfast.
Then I made this smiley pancake.
:x!



I kinda like this watch.
Very chio.
Lolita watch.
LOL



Okay, Yang's birthday bbq.
I got 2 photos and 3 videos.
Uploading videos nao.
Very slow.
LOL.
















Ohya.
Not to forget, Shanti's birthday at Friday.
One sweet, short and small video too ^-^.








Oh, and I am still so-in-love with HIBARI KYOYA.
:x.
He looks absolutely h-a-w-t in a suit.
LOL!






I remember what you wore on the first day.

Love drunk.

Just came back from Yang's bbq.
Very seh already.
Jiawen vommited 4 times.
3 times at the park, 1 time at home when I was fetching her.
Now I'm so seh.
Will probably post photos tomorrow.
A few videos also.
Quite epic.
They yam seng, the bangala behind also yam seng.
Too bad I never video the bangala.
Too noisy people.
Whistle like dogs.
HAHAHA.
Ok bye.
LOL

Clazziquai

My leg was sore the whole day. Unable to walk properly today during school.
What a drag.
During Civics and Moral Education today was real fun.
My class went to the performing area to play games.
Kena called out a tad many times.
Was so nervous till I screamed my classmates name.
Then somebody called out my name, I was in a daze.
I totally forgot who I wanted to call out.
LOL!

Then went to do library duty.
Then went back home.
I've passed level 42 licence for four tries.
LOL.



I used the magic lamp to buy a bottom.
Very chio please.
I like it loads.



That was when I rule the world.

Korean Dream

Ran 4.8Km today.
Leg is numb as hell.
Sharing videos today.

This guy playing the piano, is really damn good.
I like him, a lot.
Pro like hell.
No scores and can play by ear.








Okay I'm a bit lazy to post much.
Ending of with Nickhun's photo.




He is UBER cute!

Edited - 2225

Finally 100%, but I could not level.
Cannot surpass the chaining.
But never mind though, I can try tomorrow.

The way you talk like this, makes me real sad.
I can't cheer you up, then I feel lousy.
Somehow, tears were coming out from my eyes without any reason.

Maybe I've haven't cried in a long time.

Throughout these days I've been thinking of last year's memories.
Truly unforgettable, indescribable.
But maybe I've kept them too close for comfort.
I just felt that I could not do anymore for anybody.
I've lost confidence in myself.
Why is that so?

I wanted things the way they were, but society and life ain't fair huh?
Once again, " Once memorable, never our memories to share together but only mine to remember the part of yours. "
I shall, and I should.
I shed not a tear.

Wedding dress

Recently classmates of mine kept playing these two songs.
Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra
SOL - Wedding Dress

Got to go to sleep. HAHAHA.
Running 4.8Km tomorrow.
Surely gonna be very tired.
Bye.
HEHE

1 Year Station

I'm trying to decide what to do on my D&T project.
Was thinking of designing a garden for deco and celebrations.
Like a patio but more modern designs.
Which, I can never come up with.
Which is why, I'm still considering what to do with it.
So I'm still checking into it.

Played with distilled water during chemistry period in the lab.
Me and classmates were like crazy wild kids spraying water on each other.
I can't believe I just shouted: " I'm 7 and I don't care "
Cause Jiahao said: " YOU THINK YOU ALL KIDS AH "
I was laughing and playing real hard.
Really fun.

But, I'll post a song.
HEHE. ^-^

G-Dragon - 1 Year Station

1년 정거장
Malhal suga eobseo
Neol butjabeul suga eobseo
Tteollideon ipsureul chamatdeon nunmureul
Bogodo moreun cheok haeya hae

Nal anajwo oneulbami jinamyeon
Niga eobseul geot gata seulpeojyeo
Geobi na jigeum i sungani yeongwonhagil

ALWAYS WAITING FOR YOU
ALL DAY I WAIT FOR YOU
Amureon giyak eobsi neomaneul chatgoisseo

Naega seo inneun jeonggeojang
Sesangi uril jiltuhaetdago saenggakhae
Inneun jeonggeojang
Igoseseo neol neukkil su isseo
Geudaega eomneun jeongdeun jeonggeojang
Najunge uri dasi mannagil gidohae
Ineun jeonggeojang
Igoseseo neol kkumkkulsu isseo

Ani ani anirago dan hanbeonmanirado
Geojitmarirago nal anajwo anirago

Uri mannameun cheoeumbuteo eotgallindeutan gingingin BUFFERING (?)
Neowa nae saien gasideongkuri hyeonsil sok jeonggeuri
Neol ireukyeo jugo sipeo
BUT geureol himi eobseo
Mireonael jasini sirheo
Gin gin gidarime jichyeo
Birok momeun meolli itdeorado
Seoro mameun byeonchimaljago
Mireonaegetji aningeol
Aju jamkkanui hyusigingeol

Neomuna nollasseo
Geunari ol jul jeongmal mollasseo
Igijeogin jamansim ttaemune
Neoui sojunghameul jal mollasseo
365 dasi ilbeon BUS
Naega gidarideon noran BUS
Yeoneunalcheoreom
Hwanhan miso jieumyeo nae pume dagawajwo

Naega seoinneun ilnyeon jeonggeojang
Sesangi uril jiltu haetdago saenggakhae
Ilnyeon jeonggeojang geugoseseo neol neukkil su isseo
Geudaega eomneun teong bin jeonggeojang
Najunge uri dasi mannagil gidohae
Ilnyeon jeonggeojang igoseseo neol kkumkkul su isseo

Ni jageun mame ni jageun sone
Sangcheoneun neomgiji marajwo
Ni jageun eokkaee ni yeppeun nune
Eoduun mirae boiji ankiro hae

Naega seoinneun ilnyeon jeonggeojang
Sesangi uril jiltu haetdago saenggakhae
Ilnyeon jeonggeojang geugoseseo neol neukkil su isseo
Geudaega eomneun teong bin jeonggeojang
Najunge uri dasi mannagil gidohae
Ilnyeon jeonggeojang igoseseo neol kkumkkul su isseo (MY BABY)

Naega seoinneun 1nyeon jeonggeojang
Sesangi uril jiltu haetdago saenggakhae
Ilnyeon jeonggeojang geugoseseo neol neukkil su isseo (BABY)
Geudaega eomneun teong bin jeonggeojang (OH)
Najunge uri dasi mannagil gidohae

Ilnyeon jeonggeojang (WOO) igoseseo neol kkumkkul su isseo (AH AH AH)

G-Dragon - 1 Year Station ( English Translation )

I can’t say

I can’t hold you

I have to act like I didn’t see the shaking lips or the tears that were held back

Hold me after this night goes, I’m sad because I feel like you’re not going to be there

It shines more right now, hope this moment lasts forever

I’m always waiting for you, all day I wait for you (oh hoho)

I’m searching for you with no promise

One year station that I’m standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

One year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

(no no no) Even if it isn’t only one night

Know that It’s a lie, it’s not me

Us meeting that crossed each other from together, the long long long buffering

Bush of ivy between you and me again, the scary jungle in reality

I want to help you up but I don’t have the strength to do that

I don’t like myself doing this; I’m tired of waiting for so long

Even if we’re far away from each other let’s keep our love

This isn’t a burden for me, it’s just a short break

Really surprise, I didn’t know that the day would really come

I didn’t know how precious you were because of my selfishness

365 again the number one bus, the bus that I’m waiting for which is you

Come into my arms having a big smile like you would do on an ordinary day

One year station that I’m standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

One year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream o fyou at this place ah ah ha

In your small heart, in our small hand don’t leave a scar

In your small shoulders, in your pretty eyes promise to not see the dark future

One year station that I’m standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

On year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ma baby

One year station that I’m standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

One year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

Pray that we meet again.

You've given me a bad romance.

Schooling as usual.
Been forgetting to post on and off at times.
Nothing interesting much.
Except this-

For the record, I bought this hair which is like a White Beanie with well, black hair.
Which HARDLY, anyone buys it.
But RECENTLY, I wore the hair and SOMEBODY actually BOUGHT my hair AFTER looking my character WEARING it.
I was appalled by her and feel frustrated because after looking at the hair that I bought, somebody actually copied it.
Although you all may say: " Aiya this kind of thing, you want angry for what? "
OR
" Very common ma, people see nice then they buy lor. "
BUT.
If you imagine, somebody saw you wear it so nicely, they bought it after you.
Would you think that they are trying to imply that they are actually having their own " originality "?
Stating that what they would say is: " Oh, I want to twin you ma. "
Eventually she didn't and stole your icon of fashion.
You may think that I'm just a joke, saying that people are copying me and I'm oh-so-ridiculous to post this because I've got no life and nothing else better to do?
I'm not.
Which tells you that I'm serious and I hate people trying to copy me.

Which leads me to say that if somebody copied you, and you won't be bothered by it?
Well, some wouldn't and some would be irritated.
Shan't we say that we have our own originality except from being the same as the others?
Don't you have your own sense of style?
Be my guest then.

Shan't rant no longer.
Been beginning to make more white hair if I'd think more of it.
To be frank, I have no white hair, and I'm proud of it.
^-^

If only you'd tell me why.

I wanted to forget, not forgotten.

Went out with Jiawen today.
Had tons of fun in timezone though.
Bought Special A manga.
Real nice.
Oh I wish that story would come true.
It'll be a real life manga story.
Sure sounds nice cause it has a happy ending.
But nobody could ever have a happy ending as prescribed.
Am I not right?

I kept thinking why, how and what.
I believe, my past mistakes have already been done and I cannot do anything further else to explain for myself.
But I have never felt so down then usual.
My faith is fading, beginning to turn somewhat unusual self.
I missed panda, somehow.

Days passed, mind's weeping.

Ever wondered why the world seems unfair towards you?
Known that people around you are trying to pull strings onto your nerves?

Ah, yes.
Sometimes in your daily life you always face these type of problems and people.

Word is, they never ever seem to cease control of themselves.
I mean it's like, you wanted peace only one day of your life,
and they come barging in screaming at you.
They find it satisfying while you are not.
Then you go all mad and crazy, stating that: I HATE MY LIFE.

It is confirmed that people made most mistakes and mistakes are hard to be undone.
Due to the conditions of one person's prescriptions.

How do you avoid them?
Simple answer.

Simply ignore their nagging and just nod your head whenever necessary and shake when it sounds absolutely wrong.

Most probably you can never seem to get things the wrong way.
But looks as if it is the right way.
So way to go!

Pure resurrection

First week of school is over.
Tired.
Real tired.
Nothing much to post.
So there.
Bye.

Wondering why am I so upset?

School was fun and was per normal.
Nothing much to post about huh.

Why am I so upset?
I've no idea what am I supposed to be so upset about.
My mood's been pulling down.
Maybe it's the affect of " ahhem "?

Well the " ahhem " came by today.
I was shocked and well, surprisingly shocked.
Tomorrow's P.E.
I'm wondering if the teacher were to ask me to run.
How would I survive?
Better ensure safety tomorrow.
May not know when " ahhem " 's going to leak the truth out.

Tired of hiding.

Invention of inverted lingerie!

Introduction:
10 decades and a few years ago, the designer was born in Mount Elizabeth Hospital during ( blablabla )
15 years and 8months later, the designer and her partner were discussing about a new bra.
It is called the " inverted bra "
Here is how the bra design, is born.

D: Next time scold dai her. :O
P: <- Black bra
D: I also wearing what :$ ;shy.
But her skin more black.
Like nigga.
Mine whiter :$
P: LOL! Bo wei gong
But at least better than the follow butt dog.
:O
D: Follow butt worm should wear black.
<- Should wear dark brown. ^-^
P: She never wear also nvm :)
D: Wear those kind of male bra sua.
-A cup. Inverted chests. :$
P: I tot is free size. Flat de.
D: Male bra also got size k.
-A cup is this
( below )
-A cup vs A Cup
Well the drawing of the chest also inverted. :x



Then the designer thought of something new to add in for the bra to match.
An inverted underwear~
The designer drew the model of the normal underwear.
Then asked for the professor to design it.
The professor made it look like a bra which is impossible to wear it anyhow or anywhere.
I think that's it. :D
LOL



Guess what's this.
HAHAHA.



School was as usual.
Boring.
I ate a Watermelon lollipop during Chinese class. ( Teacher gave the whole class lollipops )
and I accidentally cut my tongue.
Not that type of chopped off tongue, but it's a slight cut.
Like paper-cut.
My tongue was bleeding ):
So I sucked my blood.
Apparently my blood tastes like water.
HEHEHE.
Okay nothing more to add on already.
HEHEHEHEHE.

Bury the castle.

Hellsing

Been watching Hellsing Anime these few days.
Really quite nice.
Although its like about vampires, supernatural.
Etc.
But seriously, its a two thumbs up for HellSing OVA.
Some pictures :x.

Alucard looks nicer when his hair is like short.
LOL.
I only noticed that during the anime, its like they showed why the character name is named as Alucard.
It stands for like Dracula in backwards.
See the connection?
Dracula = Alucard
Cool. LOL






















First day of school was boring.
Lots of talks and teacher's introduction for the first day.
Knew it for like years and years in school.
So it was normal.

Nothing much to post now.
:D
I'll continue watching hellsing.
It's like 50mins for the 1st episode and it contains like 3 episodes in the old hellsing.
LOL!

I don't want to see him.

I don't want to, I don't even wish to.

I don't want my mind to wander about simultaneously.
I don't even want to think.
I have absolutely nothing to think of till then.
Happily watching gokusen the anime, then this?
I seriously, don't want to.

You'd think pulling a stunt like that would make me happy, while it does not.
Made me worse.
I don't think, I can make it throughout the day if this constantly appears in my mind.

I let go, but it came back.
Just, why?

Edited - 20:00

Special posts for special loved ones.

Jiawen :
Ive known you long enough and I've seen you throughout the few years to know how and what's on your mind.
Jiawen, stop making me worry for you.
Don't punch walls or do some sorts of things to hurt yourself again.
It's not worth it.
You shouldn't keep things you want to say out to yourself.
Try to be more open to me.
I'd gladly open arms to you.
Don't think that I'm carefree that you should follow like me too.
Just listen to yourself, what you want to do.
If you made the decision, I'll respect your decision and guide you through.
I want you to work hard this year okay?
Don't go around and slack off already.
Be more serious awhile.
Should help you a lot in your studies.
Always aware, I'll always be with you.
Cause you are something I cannot bear to lose, Jiawen.

Yanglin :
Thanks for posting such a sweeeeet post about me.
Now it's mine for you.
Though you are having a hard time trying to please him, do know that I saw you trying.
But, since things have gone topsy turvey for you, let it go for awhile.
You don't really have to be with him twenty-four-seven.
I remember you always shouted at us.
But it was real fun hanging out with you.
Word goes that you might see heaven in one's view. But you cannot blame honesty for triggering out of your mind.
Try to get that meaning.
You might know where I'm heading when I said this. :x.
More or less, you also play an important part in someone who I want to protect from others.

Minbin didi :
Didi, stop doing things that harm your body.
Be it for enjoyment or pouring out your heart, still you shouldn't do things to harm your internal organs.
You always want to protect me as and when, whenever you can.
I really liked that.
Honestly I really do.
But bear in mind you have to protect yourself too.
Small things happened and it will make you go boom.
But if anything were to happen to you, what am I supposed to do?
Still, I have to protect you by all means right?
So don't do things to scare and worry me.
I'll try to be by your side, whenever as much as possible.
Promise me you won't hurt yourself again okay?

To the rest of you guys :
Close friends, gans, buddies and nuddies.
All of you are important to me.
I treat friends more than others.
I treat my loved ones more special than others too.
But, dosen't mean that there's no position in line for you too.
I'll have you all understand that being somebody to manage peace within one self isn't easy at all.
I may look easygoing, easy to bully and some other sorts.
But all I did was for entertainment,
As much as you expected for me to do as much as possible, please.
Do not take me for granted.
If you betray me or just go against me, I won't hesitate to actually hit you.
Better still, it's better if you'd avoid me.
Cause it really pisses me off to see that you are going against me.
So if you really are, so be it.
You are going to face retribution.
One day, you will pay back all the harsh things you said to me.
Believe me, I don't forgive and forget that easily unless there is a reason to.

All I ask, is for everyone's honesty towards me.

Tiring.

Happy new year everybody.

Really lazy to post about 31st December, do forgive me.
I'm in a bad mood cause my mom made me like this.
Seriously, is this going to stop? Like it's a never ending war with my mom.
She ain't tired, but I am.

New year's resolution - Get good grades, get good attitude, get more money and spend all round.